Leg ciori de gard!

Simti cat de gol esti? simti ca singura persoana pentru care reprezinti intradevar ceva esti tu? Simti cat esti de pustiit in interior? simti ca actiunile tale nu au nimic cald in ele? simti ca totul se reduce la propria ta persoana? simti ca daca ai pieri acum nu ai lasa nimic in urma , nici macar o amintire ? simti ca ? simti ca sangele tau este rece? simti ca gandurile tale nu au nimic placut in ele , si ca sunt conduse de ura? simti ca esti doar o marioneta? simti ca nimic nu te poate face sa razi cu pofta? simti ca toate gandurile tale au in comun banii? simti ca singura ta problema au devenit banii ? simti ca adierea placuta a vantului nu te poate atinge? simti ca oamenii te evita? simti ca momentele in care esti fericit , sunt cele in care ai bani, si lumea te pupa in fund? simti ca totul trebuie sa fie ori ca tine , ori deloc? simti ca nu faci nimic cu adevarat important ci numai lucruri superficiale?? simti ? SIMTI CAT DE GOL ESTI?!! daca nu simti asta iti negi propria existenta, iti negi propria menire , tot ceea ce faci este sa traiesti in negare.

A moment in my mind.. it can be a hour ,a day , a week , a year a life time.. I just feel sometimes, i could stop the time , so that moment , that second last forever.. a moment.. a second.. it’s not my fault that sometimes others are seconds smarter than me.. i sometimes beat others. but.. there’s that moment in my mind.. that moment that sometimes makes me wonder. makes me hate you all. makes me want my special time with me.. makes me wanna listen to me.. makes me . do things that i usualy don’t. that’s my moment..

Sometimes the moment says. : just do it.. and sometimes it makes me wanna think it through. through the facts , untill the last . untill it’s working as it should.. but. i have my moments of cowardness witch makes me wanna run. give it up.. it’s too fucking hard.. so why should i bother.. Thank God . theyr only moments.. sometimes i just wanna smash something.. and then i come to realize that the thing i wanna distroy has no fault.. I’ve givven un blaimming others for my mistakes, as i learned that all passes. and it’s a damn wrong thing to do to blaim the closest person to you. no.. if it’s something wrong , the guilty is you. she , he makes a lot of mistakes , and they hurt , it’s your fault for taking them , and staying with them. just give up.. go away.. there’s others. so there’s moments.. and there’s moements..and sometimes you just need someone to complain to , and if the other don’t have any time for you , you just wanna go somewhere else where you find what are you looking for. sometimes.. you look for compasion, sometimes for love , sometimes for understanding , sometimes for a fight.. but you shoul just go and search for what you are seeking. i dunno if it’s right to wanna find something where you know for sure you just cand find it there.. to wanna change a person , to suit your needs. i think it’s wrong.. it’s not what you want.. you should just go and find it elswere.. or not. i dunno. there’s only moments.. and moments in my mind. they work..as .. clocks. tic tac ,.tic tac.

By the way the spelling and the grammar suckx. but so are you .

Ehhh.. stau pe net.. pierd vremea. ma uitam un pic in jurul meu , si pe langa santierul si asha destul de evident , incercam sa privesc un pic dincolo de obiectele din jur.. si mi-am dat seama ce inseamna de fapt capitalizarea.. ma uit pe masa un tv SONY , compul TOSHIBA, langa mine am un NOKIA si un SAMSUNG , un covor pe jos evident destul de vechi dar totusi exista . un tricou ADIDAS, o geanta PUMA pe undeva pe jos.. un fier de calcat ZANUSSI , o umbrela veche si deja iesita din uz , da oarecum un aer de antichitate . Pe undeva o plasa BERGENBIER , ceva cutii in care sunt lucrurile mele acum , o cutie de ARIEL , si tot asha… chiar si intro camera plina ochi ca cea in care stau eu acum , ca deh cand zugravesti te tot muti din camera in camera , si sincer sa fiu cred ca e a nsphea.si sper eu si ultima , gasesti peste tot ideea de brand. ideea ca majoritatea lucrurilor astora ar fi fost poate la fel de calitative si fara sa fie brand. dar uite ca.. ne capitalizam , asta vor de fapt americanii , capitalizare , vor MC’Donalds peste tot , vor KFC, vor BURGER KING.. COCA COLA , COLGATE , GILLETTE deja sunt peste tot , in toate casele in toate locuintele  noastre.. si noi.. ca si ei .. capitalizam .. incercam macar.. un card de date ca , deh momentan netul meu de la RDS , e pierdut undeva prin detalii e de la VODAFONE , cica UK .. cica ei toti , statele mari si tari isi introduc brandurile puternice peste tot.. iar noi.. acceptam pentru ca vorba aia a noastra a romanilor.. suntem prea saraci sa ne permitem lucruri ieftine…..

Momentan este in constructie.  Din cauza unor amanunte organizationale … BRB adica.. Pentru ca asha vreau eu , cine a intrat si nu a gasit nimic , nu-i nimic data viitoare ) oricum tot siteul e .. varianta BETA ) ashea ca chill.. relax.. o sa fie si mai bine ) .. daca aveti chef sa cititi ceva intre timp , va recomand o carte )